Gray Room

What is this feeling?
Is it the power of not knowing?
But deep inside there is someone
Whispering the truth behind the veil


But why are my hands so numb?
And my fingertips are all so cold?
I wish that I would never know
The truth behind the shadows


I wish that I would live
Forever in this sweet misery
The mystery is like a melody
But the truth is a pain I see


But my feet would like to go there
In the light cold it may be
I cannot see the beauty
Of the sweet words said to me


Im living and wearing this mask
Since the day that I fell down
I was never given a chance
To stand up one more time


And why do I have to crawl alone
Just to be where I am right now
And why this loneliness never leaves
Why this pain never stops


Is it because your anger is never subsiding
Will you hate me til the last day I'm living
Would you hide until I die
Would I cry until the water runs dry


Hush I want to rest, Im so tired
My journey is coming to the end
There are no more steps on the white stairs
And again I'm alone with this burden


What is it that I am so scared of?
Is it your face or your voice
I know there is no turning back
You cant be stopped, you left me no choice

Encrypted

Your heart is full of hatred towards me, maybe it's your way of saying your love is slowly fading

But no matter how indifferent you are to me, my love towards you wont change a bit

You may think I have hurt you so much, and you may think I am lying

But what would I get if in the end I know I'll just end up crying

No matter what I do, you always think I am your enemy

You always think all I do are all against you

Is this your way of saying goodbye because you can't tell it to my face

Maybe I just have to see through your eyes on how much you have really changed

I think you no longer care, that is what you wanted me to feel

I would appreciate if you could kill me bit by bit

This way once I'd died, I would still feel the pain

And I hope to see you smile that you've got your sweet revenge

Yes, maybe, you don't need me anymore

But I still lie to myself thinking you would change your mind

No I wont change my feelings for you a bit, cuz I don't want to regret

If ever that time comes which I fear, I know I did my best

Death of My Passion

Sitting under the pale moonlight
Gazing at the stars til midnight
Seeking for something to heal my sorrow
But it seems that my heart was shot by an arrow

Reminiscing all our memories
Thinking that we're in a bliss
Reminding me of the love we've shared
With the pledge of love that we swear

Thinking of you makes my teardrops fall
Wondering why our love befall
Oh, how I wish you were here
Caressing me the way you used to do before

Sadness, Loneliness, Depression
I have felt from the death of my passion
No hopes, No dreams, No inspiration
Is there any affection?

Every time we meet
My heart increases its beat
And every second you would glance
I see the face, happiness had enhanced

Hurtful words I wish I never said so
Now I felt of letting you go
Hope I could bring back your love before
But now, you don't love me anymore

If you just only knew
What I really feel for you
Your heart would tell it's true
That my love is sincere for you..

Luceia's Farewell (Be it from me)

Yes, it was the reason that I felt, it was that I am being embraced by those waves. You who do not understand how it feels to be in vain. Nor you do not understand how it feels to be alone. No.., you do not understand what I am trying to say.

And yes, maybe for now, I am alone. And can I see myself in  picture of someone? When I look at the mirror, is that what I see.., my face? The deep truth of those lies and silliness. And you.., you do not understand.

Like a wayfarer, I am trying to close the doors. But it seems that the fate I chose is opening the windows. Can I carry on? When will the rain stop on me and shower me with her fortunes?

When I dream, I dream of endless goodbyes. I dream of sufferings and loneliness. Darkness. All I can see is a lit of light. It's the same light I am looking for, but the more I plunge towards it, the more it becomes dimmer until I realize it was only an illusion.

Yes, you do not understand. How could you say it is alright when you do not understand. Can you live where I live? Can you bear insanity? Dark and sad, it's all I can see. You cannot go where I am and you can't be.

Go back. yes little soul, where your father is waiting. Be not like me. For I chose to be doomed and yesterday may not be like tomorrow. But today is another reason. It's another picture that tells the story of a painter's life. Go back from where you started. And there you will see the path that leads to your victory.

Be it from me. The walls are breaking and the towers are crashing. The houses are burning in fire, just like the light in my heart...my heart that was wrought since the start of war.

Yes, be it from me. For my soul will remember thy kind face, affection and gentleness. For my life is falling like that of a Wormwood Star. Someday, you'll soon forget that we met. But be it from me, e'en just in thy dreams that you might remember this weary face that's looking at the dream like images above.

You can beat them all. But in your heart you know you may not. You can draw a star to live on and paint it with those radiant colors. But how long can you make and bear all these? When will your masterpieces be, like the epilogue of a cunning novel somewhat show the reality? But all the musicians' songs are the songs of the deads, the rustling of pale leaves and the whisper of winds.

And yes, can you paint that blue for me? I can see how fashionable those waves maybe. Someday they would rise, and then they would fall. And when though had they gone? Why, since they went to the darkness and were seen no more.

In my tomb, they would see no single rose nor a bud of a brier. Or they may not see the tomb at all. Otherwise, the stars will fall and burn it, or the ground will shake and swallow it. For the sea will soon be gone and be no more.

I can see, it was the painting of a cold, serene day. And as of now, the sea does not look dangerous. I can still see the towering masts of those great sailing ships and the mountains seem calm and secure. The slight breeze ruffles the water and the flags flutter on the boats.

Wind is blowing east. I heard them whispering on my ears. Thousands of ships were launched and many had seen their deaths, but cowardly they hesitated to stop the war. Will you be engaged on them?

Go that ye may find your fate. Leave me with the siren of the sea, here in this forgotten place. Be it not known that nothing will be remembered.  I am letting go and tonight I will feel the embrace of the waves. Will I dream of an endless journey? Will I feel the cold breeze? Look at the portrait of the heavens and may you fly in the midst of clouds, being lifted by feathers like that of an angel.

I can no longer bear the noises and my ears are getting tired of those cries. But be it from me, that the notes from my fingers may safely brought you into the cradle of that Peaceable Land. Remember the tale of the traveler, it was the life of the painter whose face allegorically shows a night light on that canvas.

May you leave with the gratitude of those poets lying in that cold place. May they know that a soul once tried to save that hungry land. That a brave living soul was put into the fangs of fervor death. May you be known little soul, entranced with the light of the moon, capturing the beauty of thy gentleness. Leave this somber place that I may submerged into the deepest pit of mankind's hole. Be not subjected to their selfish deeds. Those doubts will soon bid away.

Go, ye little soul. Be it from me. Leave the call of melancholy. Seek the place of hope and dignity. Hear the graceful songs of music made from those sounding boxes. Hear their sharp but gentle sound, then I may praise Above. Be not ye sober, you will no longer hear the cry of foolishness and cowardliness. The war will soon end.

I can't remember for I never promised of wasting my tears. After all, those will soon run dry, like that of the spring hidden above the mountains. But thy tears are more precious that the golds underneath. They are made to fall, sparkling, to glow brighter than the falling stars as ever than before. That they may hear the call of an innocent soul.

Be far from trouble. Hear my last words. May they understand, little soul, may you also. Go ye, and never come back. Go, little soul. Go that ye, the sole witness of this lonely planet's destiny may forget and that they may never know.

Farewell

Turning back the hands of time
Wondering how we drifted apart
Facing all the consequences that came to our life
It really makes my heart aches
When I remember them all


I felt sorry of letting you go
Coz deep inside me is you
You give life to what I do
Yes, I love you
For I found the good things inside you


You have the music that made me feel brand new
I can't believe that you've changed me for the best so fast
Oh! how I wish for you
But our love didn't last


I know you can't really stay
And there is one thing I want to say
I LOVE YOU forever
But farewell and Godbless

Domain

Descent of aloneness..here I am with myself again. Destiny, why did you ruined them? I am but a deprived nominee of an unseen hand. Uncertain of immeasurable empire, hid me here with my anxieties. Here in the abyss of unchosen fate.

But would that I had wished to help them. I would had just perished. But what could I do, they are all now divided. I can't go where they are. I am just drifting here alone. I thought it is for good. My heart is but a docile illusion of sober and grave.

Search me, here in desolation. Be cautious in taking your steps, often it is in depth but sometimes it is as hollow as fear of death. I am in revolution and uncertainty. I was trapped in this dark place where e'en wind cannot escape.

Ye, of noble mind and soul, you are all but free. And what can I see, your hearts are filled with deceits. You are all lured with selfish deeds. Was it because you love each other too much? But why would you fly just to fall. Did you wish to climb, to jump to that lying pit of mankind's hole? It was almost as blue as the bluish black space. Wind, help me to breathe for I can't stand them. They thought that you Fate is inevitable for them to see.

In that galaxy, I can feel but we were all but falling planets. Our lights were in dim. The stars are crashing, all but declining. Why did a curse was put on us? Why can't we live this lonely life? Will we die all in vain, with that epitaph in an unseen place? But we can fly again, only our wings were torn by the war. So we can't fly again. No. E'en just by holding each other,for faith was lost amidst our wonders.

And yet, it was the air of dignity.., yes it was the soft breeze. The brush of the soft breeze in my cheeks. It was a gentle tune, that aided me with the whirl of adversity. I know it will last to heal me with those wounds. Gale, it was your strong current, that rumor..that power of breathing. It was not just an empty talk. It was that air, bearing a scent.

Mystery..puzzled by the mourning age of truths and beliefs. I would like to go where you maybe, but I can't leave my duty. Behind, some mornings will be surrounded by those fictitious smiles. I would swear they were all but lies.

Underneath, there was a windstorm. I can see it and I can feel it. But for Humanity, I can't leave. For in this place I have promises to keep. I can't help but wince myself.

I bid on you..for I can't go where you maybe. But how I wish to see you all. I would blow the mocks of those  greedy souls.., they who are trying to capture you with their deceiving words.

But as of now, hide me here with your silence, here in your touch of gentleness. My hands are none but a licensed poet. With those dignified treasures of laughter, your unseen dimension will be mine - whispering in an autumn day. You can keep me safe as long as I can feel you blow..

Destroyers (excerpt)

Clouds...all a mist. Deceived by the uncertainty of the feelings. With that tame heart, caught by the fogs, rebelled against the falling stars.


Yet, how long can she endure? Can she survive alone? Can she see behind those clouds? No one, neither her twin knows. The dim of heavens show how high she was confused.


It was a mistake, and she was sure. She can feel it..it was that flash of light in the sky, caused by the fondness of winds. How ruthless it can be..it was the blue, their progeny. With their obscure words, it was her who only understands.


She saw it, the atmosphere discharge. She can feel it crawling inside her. Where would she go? Still she doesn't know. She wants to sail and be succumb by the waves, it's what I'm sure of. The raindrops are now falling. Hear them. They fall rapidly to the forests. I know, she would love to see them fall on those trees and vines. I know she knows, they were no longer stars to be called. But I know, she loves them.


'Cuz now, she can see, what's that foible inside her. That small weakness in her character. And still she was called a loser.


Look at her..lorn by the chastise of their chosen fate. Why would they want that fate? Why that foolishness? But I know, she loves the wind.., water always love the wind. See, what's that future she was going...


Lightning, would she just strike again?


Survive, oh thunder..roar a loud as you can. But she was a silence. Was it only an allusion? That massive clouds are not the solutions. Heed the wrath of heavens. I know, there she would just try to strike again.