Tuesday, February 12, 2013
My Dream of Falling
Months ago, maybe November or December I think, i had this dream of falling.
I was with my colleagues and we were riding a passenger jeep. We were laughing about something, though I can't remember what it was. The road was mountainous and when we were about to turn towards a curve, I lost my balance and fell off from the jeepney. I thought I'm gonna die but I was able to hold on to something like a metal/iron. It was like a giant gate and I was on top of that gate holding onto it. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to hold any longer so I lose grip of the steel and I fell, and it's like 3-5 floors high. The jeepney stopped and they all searched for me and they were all sad, and I was sure that I'm dead but I was only wounded. I was alive."
When I woke up, I was a bit worried. That time, I thought that maybe I might lose my colleagues' friendship or worse, I might lose my job. However, after a couple of weeks, this is what happened.
My colleagues went to lunch one day and I was so sleepy I wasn't able to join them. We usually go together on lunch but that time I couldn't help but sleep. After almost 1 hour, I woke up and my supervisor asked me where are the rest of the group and I told her they were on lunch which she obviously knew. I advised one of our friends which was just stationed near the pantry to inform them because the supervisor was already wondering why they were on lunch for more than an hour. The following day they were given a sanction. It was supposedly a dismissal but they were informed that it was downgraded instead. It was bad because they are no longer qualified for an appraisal. Everyone was angry and if I wasn't sleepy that time, I could have been one of them.
It was a couple of weeks after that incident when I realized what my dream was about. I find it funny, but falling from the jeepney is like me falling into sleep in the real world - and I was saved because of that. I felt a little guilty because they were penalized and I wasn't. In my dream, I was wounded at the end and I felt the same for them, I was hurt- emotionally.
Isn’t it funny? But I am still worried that next time I would be the one who would get penalized for sleeping during office hours…LOL! But I guess I have my luck for now…